和同事提起部門工作氣氛的問題，他有同意之餘沒有多大的意見。過了一日，他告訴我︰你很幸運能想這些問題。起初，我不大明白，及後他續說：不是很多人如你這般幸運。啊﹗明白了。真的，我可是幸運的一群，沒有太多生活生存上的憂慮。最煩惱的可能是每晚的晚餐吃些什麼，但這是否我們人生所追求的？人，生而自由。有的每天追求過時尚的生活；有的追求每天安穩的過已是最大的幸福。可是，我們在社會中生活，是否真有選擇？是否真的自由？

我以為，生活方式是如何也可能，重要的是我們是否有意識的。是否意識到誰在生活？當知道誰在生活時，那為何而活？有信仰的人可以追尋信仰真理為生存價值，沒有的那可以如何？現代生活上、社會上有太多消磨意志的人和事，有很多根本的問題，人們都未能看清、了解而活在渾沌之中。我們可以沒有信仰，但卻不能忘記追求生命價值和真理。

My friends from HKEJ

I was wondering why there is so much traffic to my blog these days. Oh! they are friends from my beloved HKEJ checking out their intellectual properties. You have done your job but keep coming for some good things.

追‧ 趕

都市人天天也在趕，可有時間去想想自己的生活狀態。

每天每刻也不想浪費，連行路都想快一點走在人前。但為什麼？我們真的要完成這麼多的事嗎？

A reflection on the ruling of government and laws

On today newspaper, there is a report on a trans-gender woman apply for judicial review after Marriage Registry rejected her application according to Marriage Oridance. This is of course an interesting issue that worth our attention as it touched the basic doctrine of Christian religion and will certainly brings a debate in the society.

And other interesting point I noticed from a TV news reports another trans-gender woman-to-be. S/he commented that "the marriage status is not only a status recognise by the society for the succession of Estate....etc. but also recognisation by the Government....etc." What caught my attention is the word "government", I thought to myself why s/he said government instead of under the laws? Are we under the rule of the Government or the rule of Laws? Remember, the government is merely a member of the society which operates under the Laws too just like everyone of us.

Another side in celebrating the fall of the Berlin Wall

It has been overwhelming report of the 20th celebration of the fall of the Berlin Wall. Leaders from the "Western" world all joined together saying this and that.

However, every celebration assumed something good/wanted has happened or something bad/unwanted has not happened or ended. In the case of the Berlin Wall, what the World sees is how people defeated communism, dictatorship, world with no freedom, and Germans finally united. On the other side, there is voice saying that celebrating the unification of Germany is a kind of Nationalism. Behind such claim, there is a much deeper value that worth our attention and reflection.

Democracy and Pragmatism

Someone would debt, especially in areas that democracy are not in the root of traditional culture like Singapore, China (including Hong Kong), the value and suitability of implementing democratic political system. Most of the argument is that democracy cannot solve social problems in a timing manner; we see only fight, debate in LegCo, this does nothing good to the society. Our CE of the HKSAR has the same ideology when explaining his Policy Address. This is a typical pragmatism point of view, or he may just use this as an argument to rationalise his(central government) decision of banning the universal suffrage.

The fundamental value of democracy is not for the sake of efficiency of system but the balance of power and interests in the society or group to show justice. If one is seeking efficiency, dictatorship is which one wants. If you want to know what justice means in a contemporary sense, please refer to John Rawls's Two Principles of Justice in "A Theory of Justice".

七一上街

有人問我為什麼要在今年七一上街，我也有問自己為什麼。自由民主的基本主題固然支持，更重要的是珍惜上街的自由和機會。眼看國內和世界很多地方遊行和發表意見的機會也沒有，甚至陪上生命。所以，請珍惜這不是必然的自由。

人情世故

常說年輕人不懂人情世故，但什麼是人情世故呢﹖ 說穿了，也只不過是也人性的美化詞罷了。借用佛家的用語，人間之苦是無明而起。無明是指對真如的無知，煩惱跟隨無明而起，顛倒因果。 不要說真如這麼深奧，就算是人世的知識都未有確切的把握便說是說非，這不是比不懂人情世故更可怕﹖

這幾行文字也只是無明而起罷了。

想 ‧ 逃避

經常自覺不是現時工作的材料，能想到不同的理由來解釋。但是事實是我真的如是，或是根本還未夠努力，自我保護機制太強而給自己的藉口而已。看不通，參不透。

藝術與聰明人

本人觀察到一個現象，聰明的人欣賞藝術的能力一般是較高的，無論是對音樂，電影，畫，文學等。 可惜，本人天資有限，有興趣但未能跨越門檻。

蚌的啟示

今天香港社會氣氛不太好，有點像鐵達尼將沉沒之時，各人都不顧一切但求生存。有人自力更生，也有人坐以待斃或待人(政府)救濟。可是，我們是否太悲觀，有沒有人可以站出來說這條船還有希望？今天我們看見多是說權利的人，少見說義務和責任。也許，今天的一切都來得太易了。

蚌的啟示

人存在的意義

"Nature does nothing in vain, and more is in vain when less will serve" Isaac Newton
"God does not play dice with the universe" Albert Einstein

人類知慧出現是達爾文的進化論也不能完全解釋，但如果你相信以上的說話，我們的存在和知慧的存在是有其理由。但我們能可否得知其理由﹖

急不了，擔心不了

有些事急也急不了，擔心也擔心不了，何不給自己時間好好沉澱一下。

作曲:Vincent chow /anfernee cheung
填詞:黃偉文
編曲：adrian chanl
監製：alvin leong

差不多冬至 一早一晚還是有雨
當初的堅持 現已令你很懷疑 很懷疑
你最尾等到 只有這枯枝

苦戀幾多次 悉心栽種全力灌注
所得竟不如 別個後輩收成時
這一次你真的很介意

* 但見旁人談情何引誘 問到何時葡萄先熟透
你要靜候 再靜候 就算失收 始終要守

# 日後 儘量別教今天的淚白流
留低 擊傷你的石頭 從錯誤裡吸收
也許 豐收 月份尚未到你也得接受
或者要到你將愛釀成醇酒 時機先至熟透

應該怎麼愛 可惜書裡從沒記載 終於摸出來
但歲月卻不回來 不回來 錯過了春天 可會再花開

一千種戀愛 一些需要情淚灌溉
枯毀的溫柔 在最後會長回來
錯的愛 乃必經的配菜

repeat * #

想想天的一邊 亦有個某某 在等候
一心只等葡萄熟透 嚐杯酒

別讓 寂寞害你傷得一夜白頭
仍得不需要的自由 和最耀眼傷口
我知 日後 路上或沒有更美的邂逅
但當你智慧都蘊釀成紅酒
仍可一醉自救 誰都心酸過 那個沒有

睡不夠

人到現在的年紀，好像常常都睡眠不足。但是想一想，現在很多時候十一時十二時多便找周公去了，有最少七至八小時，這比以往的日子都睡得足，何以現在卻感到睡眠不足呢﹖

一般的回答多是身體機能不及當年、運動不足等。但我想，是否我們現在欠缺了對生命的衝勁、生活的追求呢﹖回想在校的時候，常常覺得每天的時間不夠用，連睡覺的時間都覺得是浪費。去玩去工作，都是那麼有衝勁的。為什麼現在卻一臉灰灰的﹖

Rainy and Sunny day

I love rain that wash dirty things away.
I love rainy days that let you feel the very existence and power of nature.
Rain and wind are the ways nature tell us her existence.
When the rain has passed, the sun and blue sky take over, energising lives again.

人生的意義

問世事可有意義
本是人自尋煩惱